My Christmas Present

Even though I will not be spending Christmas with the love of my life, it's okay.  Heavenly Father has blessed us this year with a job for him since he lost his local job back in November.  He will be driving trucks, this time it is not accross the united states, but it is regional.  He will be home more often, not every day like he was but I can live with that.  I'm just glad that we were blessed with him getting a job.  I just hope Heavenly Father will keep him safe on the road as he travels!!!

Stressfulness

Ugh, is all I can say about right now.  Things are a little stressful.  Hubby lost his local job due to lack of experience and the insurance for the company wouldn't cover him so they let him go.  Not good because that just puts a financial burden on us without any notice.  I am still working at the post office, although some of the people here are being butt munches.  Yup, it's the older people that are complaining, all because the postmaster that was here, who had been here for like 20 years, retired and now they come in and here is this new person who is trying her hardest to run it.  I get alot of "well blah blah always did it this way."  At times I want to say, well blah blah isn't here anymore and they never did things the right way anyways. 

Alexander McClintic

A friend here in waverly, mo found this information for genealogy work.

Messed up letters to Missionaries!

Dear Adam,

I just want to start by saying how much I still love and care for you but the truth is the moment your plane took off I ran into Elder Stevens. He was just returning from his mission in England. He asked me for my number and suggested that we meet up. I did and we started seeing more of each other. Occassionally, my mind would drift to you, but I figured that you were having fun with your companion and I needed some fun too. You need to concentrate on your mission thats why I'm only telling you a week before you come home so its not a shock.

I'm engaged, Adam, and I've never been happier! I was wondering, seeing how David is your best friend, he wants you to be a part of the wedding and be his best man. It is understandable of course if you can't bear it and see me with him when we said as you left "see you in white!". I know this may seem harsh but I'm way too good for you. You need some-one a little bit more in your league. David is out of my league but he still loves me. Anyway, I'm babbling, but we'll meet you at the airport when you come home! I'll look forward to showing you the wedding plans and the ring David bought me (sorry, it's the one you were going to buy me, but couldn't afford it)!
Hope this hasn't ruined your day!

All my love, forever, Christine xxxxxxxxxxx



    Dear Amber,

I want you to know that you mean the world to me. I will always treasure the moments we spent together, and I know we will have many more of those moments in the future, considering that I'm marrying your sister Emily in two weeks! Yeah, isn't it crazy! We had wanted you to come to the wedding, but we decided we couldn't wait that long. We're getting married on May 6th in the DC Temple. I know you waited for me on my mission and I promised to wait for you, but I know God had something better in mind for both of us. But we're thinking that we might name our first daughter after you. That would be nice, wouldn't it? I hope we can still be really good friends, otherwise Emily would feel bad. Anyways, have a great day!

~Mike

I voted

So I guess I can say today I voted.  Yeah jump for joy.  Nope not me! First off I went into the polls knowing nothing about anyone except the presidential candidates. Second, where was the info on the propositions that were being passed.  I do have to admit that California has it together when it comes to making sure the voter is informed!!  I guess I am also not happy about voting because honestly I THINK OUR VOTES DO NOT COUNT!!! yup, I said it.  Voting is just something to make the people think they are calling the shots, making the decisions about who is going to run our country.  Me, I don't think that.  Voting is something that is givin to us people to make us think that this is our government.  If that be the case that our vote counts then why the heck back in 19-- oh i forgot the year.  But back then when Al Gore was running for president, the people of the United States voted Al into office but nooooo we all know what happened.  Baby Bush was placed into the white house, why because the stupid Electoral College.  Yup I called it stupid.  It just proved to me that no matter how much us, the people, want someone in office another yahoo is put there.  And boy did this country pay for that decision.  10+ years of war, an economy that today is still not back on track, even food and stuff we buy are expensive while our paychecks remain small.  I think I need to save some money and buy me a nice island somewhere in the pacific and live there on my own, no government, no laws except my own, no one around me. wow now I am starting to sound like my dad.
       So forgive me when I am not happy when I say I voted.  I'm not being antiamerican or even just plain rude.  But I have my reasons as to why I am not happy this year on voting.

Killer of technology

Yup just like the title says, I am a KILLER OF TECHNOLOGY!!! At work I had to migrate my computer from an older system to a newer system.  Of coarse I was wondering where the actual techs were, you know the ones that come out and do it themselves.  But no no one came, I had to do it all by myself.  And the whole time I was saying, I am going to blow something up.  Well unfortionally I didn't blow anything up like I thought I was going to.  Instead I made something that was working no longer work. To top it off I was on the phone with tech support for like an hour waiting for them to say "Well I don't know what to tell you, you did something we can not fix and so we will send someone out to fix it." But those words never came true.  Instead they fixed it!!!! Good ol tech people.  Now I must say, I am headed home!!! Should have been home over an hour ago!

What to do with Flea Bag??

Well it shows how much I have been working lately if I don't really notice my cats.  Yesterday, or should I say lastnight, I noticed that Flea Bag, my female cat, is pregnant.  Yup you read right.  Now I can't be mad at her, or the tom although I would really love to strangle his neck!!!! It honestly is truely my fault for not getting her or the tom fixed.  I knew she was a little hoochie and yet I never fixed her, but of coarse remember I never had the money to do it.  So here is Flea Bag, tummy huge, don't know when she is going to pop, loving.  Well if she actually has the kittens I am so unsure on what I am going to do with them.  Ugh too many animals!!

Are people really reading my blog???

Ever since I have been looking around on the blogger website, I always posted from my phone and not the internet, I have been checking every day to see how much traffic my blog has been having.  Today it said that I have had 32 page views.  I wonder, is it really that many people reading my short little spills or is blogger telling me a lie.  If people are really reading it then why isn't anyone posting comments to my blog.  I would really like to have someone comment.  As long as it isn't a dumb comment.  Like, mormons are morons, or you suck.  I just don't know how people can be that rude to others.  This morning I was just telling my co worker that I don't understand people.  Why is it that people can be so cruel to others.  Totally off subject....ok back on track now.  So people if you are out there reading my inner thoughts, my rants, my raves, my loneless then PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT.  I'll even accept: Becky Joe read this post. Something to know that I am not just writing this for myself but others are reading it.  And hey if one sparks some interest in you let me know too.
Till we meet again.

Mail

Okay so I work in the post office.  Since I have been here I have noticed that people do not check their mail on a regular basis.  Goodness, trying to stuff more mail in an alread full box it pretty dang hard!!! I just don't understand them.  Sometimes I don't check my mail on one or two days, but mail for me is kind of like getting presents on Christmas.  You never know what is going to be in the box.  I know it's a pain when all that seems to come is bills, you get one paid and then it seems like the next day they are sending you another bill.  Or what about that junk mail??? I hate getting it in my emails, but getting it in my snail mail is kind of fun.  I think it's because I can rip it up and toss it in the trash.  But the best thing is when I know I am getting a package in the mail.  The anticipation of waiting for it to come, not what day it is going to be there (unless you track it online, but even then you never know exactly what time it is going to get there), and then when it finally comes you rip into it, open up what ever you ordered and then bam, the excitement is gone.  Once again like presents.  But there are customers here that have let their packages sit for almost a week, and yet they are notified that they got their package.  I just don't understand who people don't really care to check mail.  Chango and I are always fighting (not litterally) to see who is going to check the box, most of the time it is him because I am at work.  But when I get to check it, I get happy.  The only time I hate to check the box is when I open it and all I see is the back of the box.  Standing there laughing at me, telling me haha looser no one loves you.  I have to admit I do get a little upset when I don't have at least one piece of mail, even if it is junk mail I don't care.  I guess you can say I'm just a little weird.  But ever since I was a kid I used to love getting the mail.  I remember seeing the mail man at the corner and I would go and stand by my box with a big smile.  He would hand it to me and I would almost run inside to give it to my parents.  But oh man if the mailman didn't hand it to me,  I never liked him from that day on.  My mom also liked our mailman, she would make fresh home made tortillas (enchilladas, you name it) and put a letter on the mailbox telling him to honk cause she had a present for him.  After a few times he came to know what to expect.  Lets just say the mailman was gaining a tad bit of weight.  I think I might have gotten of my soap box....seems like that.  But anyways, I wish I could leave a note in the box telling them, "hey why don't you keep your box clean so I won't have to struggle to get more mail in it." LOL oh well, can't do nothing about it but complain to myself and hope the next day when I come into work my customers cleaned out their box. =D

Stress, what for?

You know it's funny how us humans stress over the smallest things.  For instance, money and bills.  Payday is coming up soon and so I start making my list of bills, when they need to be paid, what check is going to pay them.  And no sooner do I make the list and add up all the expense do I start stressing over it.  WHY???? I wish I knew the answer!  It's not like the bills are not going to get paid, or even just a partial payment to keep the essentials on.  Goodness.  Bills are my number one stresser, number two is having enough money to keep Chango feed while he is away from home.  I love how Alma put it in the Book of Mormon: 
                                          Alma 39:14

14 Seek not after riches nor the vain things of this world; for behold, you cannot carry them with you.

And yet I still stress over money.  I know the Lord will provide for me if I just ask him to.  He has done it so many times in the past.  Has found a way for me to pay the bills when I thought there was no way and they were on a disconnection notice.  Jacob has even said to seek the Lord:   Jacob 2:18

18 But before ye seek for riches, seek ye for the kingdom of God.

I must remember that no matter how much I make, or my husband or how little we have I must still remember the Lord in good times and in bad.  The Nephites show such a good example in  Alma 62:49

49 But notwithstanding their riches, or their strength, or their prosperity, they were not lifted up in the pride of their eyes; neither were they slow to remember the Lord their God; but they did humble themselves exceedingly before him. Jacob reminds us that we must seek Christ and also have charity:  Jacob 2:19

19 And after ye have obtained a hope in Christ ye shall obtain riches, if ye seek them; and ye will seek them for the intent to do good—to clothe the naked, and to feed the hungry, and to liberate the captive, and administer relief to the sick and the afflicted. I must not be like the people in Helaman 13:22

(22 Ye do not remember the Lord your God in the things with which he hath blessed you, but ye do always remember your riches, not to thank the Lord your God for them; yea, your hearts are not drawn out unto the Lord, but they do swell with great pride, unto boasting, and unto great swelling, envyings, strifes, malice, persecutions, and murders, and all manner of iniquities.) And not remember to thank my Heavenly Father for all he has given me, my job, my husbands job, our home, our car, our family.  For without him we wouldn't have everything.  It pains me that I am not always thanking him for the things he has given me.  I must remember to always count my blessings!!

I must remember:

Alma 37:36

36 Yea, and cry unto God for all thy support; yea, let all thy doings be unto the Lord, and whithersoever thou goest let it be in the Lord; yea, let all thy thoughts be directed unto the Lord; yea, let the affections of thy heart be placed upon the Lord forever.

Realization of my personal Liahona

Yesterday sister cts suggested we read the book of mormon and start at the Book of Mosiah. So with her eldest daughter and our friend jn r we read chapter 1 together. There has been a verse that stuck jumped out at me. It is Mosiah 1:16 king benjamin talks about "...the ball or director, which led our fathers through the wilderness." that ball was the liahona, a compass given to Lehi. The first mention of the Liahona was in 1Nephi 16:10. In 1Nephi 16:26-29 it mentions the Lord would write messages on it, so that the Nephites would understand what the Lord required of them. It would also change from time to time. 1Nephi 16:28 tells us "...the pointers which were in the ball, that they did work according to the faith and diligence and heed which we did give unto them." I have noticed that the scriptures work the same way that the Liahona worked for the Nephites.  I can read one scripture, one verse, and it would mean something to me.  Then days or even a year later I can read the same verse and it would mean something totally different to me.  My personal Liahona is my scriptures.  By the Lord were they written, through his servents, and the Lord speaks to me through them.   One day it can mean something and the next it can mean something else.  Each time I read the scriptures, they guide me through the wilderness.  Now my wilderness is not the same as the Nephites wilderness that was spoken of in the Book of Mormon.  No MY wilderness is not uninhabited land that I must go throught.  MY wilderness is everyday life, the life we live.  It is the place I work, my friends, my town, my home.  That is MY wilderness, and MY Liahona is the scriptures that guide me through everyday life.  The Bible, The Book of Mormon, the Pearl of Great Price and The Doctrine and Covenants.  They are my Liahona, and as long as I am faithful and I put my trust in the Lord, my Liahona will continue to work, it will continue to lead me through my wilderness, it will lead me down the path of rightousness, it will lead me on that straight and narrow path.  It will lead me to that promise land, which for me is Heaven. Find your personal Liahona, have it guide you, find your messages from the Lord in it.

“If we listen to and follow the promptings of the Spirit, they will serve as a Liahona, guiding us through the unknown, challenging valleys and mountains that are ahead (see 1 Nephi 16).”-

First Presidency Message

General Conference—No Ordinary Blessing

By President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

Second Counselor in the First Presidency

Loner

I think I have came to grips with the fact that I am a loner.  I pretty much stay to myself now a days.  Well work has something to do with it because I am at it every day from 730-5 after work I just go home, feed my animals, make dinner and then get ready to go to bed.  I find myself in bed by 8pm but not falling asleep till about 1030-11.  Saturdays, Chango and I have the night off together and on Sundays we have the day together, never fails instead of him wanting to be at home and maybe clean the house or rearrange or even just spend time lounging around he is wanting to do things.  Like this past Sunday it was go, go, go.  I didn't even have time to feed us until after 8pm.  The funniest thing about this weekend, was that we were at someones house and I found myself sitting in my vehicle with the persons dog, the dog didn't even know me before that day, singing and talking to the dog.  I happened to look over at everyone else talking in a circle and I thought to myself, "Wow, I rather be hanging out with animals instead of people." And the weirdest thing is that it didn't even bug me at all.  Maybe the reason why I stay to myself is that growing up I couldn't really go anywhere, I spent most of my time going to school then going home. And the fact that the brother I grew up with is 10 years older than me, so hanging out with him was not really an option. The only friends I hung out with was my neighbors.  My dad was pretty strick after my mom passed away.  I couldn't go to any dances, or school functions besides band, I couldn't go hang out with my friends at a mall or even at Mc Donalds.  I couldn't go to any of their houses and chill.  Running around in the streets forget about it.  So what did I do, I stayed home, mostly in my room.  I listened to music, watched tv, read books, talked on the phone alot to my friends, talked alot to my dog until she passed away.  Looking back my room was awesome to me.  I had all kinds of thing, things that are now in a box locked behind a door in a room that I never go into.  Boy how life has changed just because I am now with someone.  If it were up to me I would have alot of my things out and about around my home.  My home would just be one big bedroom to me.  Even now as I write this and reflect on my feelings about not always hanging out with people, and not really being around people I am not even a bit sad or feel remorse.  I guess it is because I am just at peace with how I am and how I grew up.  I am a Loner.

Gladys Knight

Yesterday, Chango, the missionaries Elder Goodman and Elder Clements and I went to see Gladys Knight and the Saints Unified Voice.  I wanted to go because it was Gladys Knight, a famious singer what I didn't know is that I was going to leave with something more than the bragging rights of saying I saw a famious person.  The presentation, concert, fireside, what ever you want to call it was amazing!!! The voices of the choir talk about angels singing.  The songs were catchy, they sang two songs I knew: I am a child of God and Amazing Grace.  lets just say I never heard those hymns sung like that.  I just couldn't stop from crying throughout the whole thing.  I am so glad and greatful that  I had a chance to be there. 

Empty

Lately I have been feeling empty. Kind of unhappy, but at the same time I am happy.  Things are going well for hubby and I but at the same time I feel like something is missing.  When we went for a drive on Sunday I told Chango that I wanted to start going back to church because I miss going to the temple.  I feel such a love and peace there when I go.  And it seems like answers come to me when I need them to.  My heart keeps going back to the scriptures.  There is a strong pulling towards them.  For me to start reading them again.  I just hate that I will read them every day for a little bit then fall into not doing it every night.  I also want to wake up every day around 5 am to start getting ready then do some scripture study but at the same time it is very hard for me to wake up early. What can I do to get closer go my Heavenly Father?  What can I do to break these chains of bondage that I am in? I don’t want to feel empty anymore!!!!!!!!!! 

Monday morning, UGH

Yesterday was such a horrible monday morning!!! I woke up late for work, actually Chango called me to see if I was up and of coarse the answer was no.  So I hurried up and got ready for work.  By the time I got there my co-worker was already there and instead of calling me to see what was wrong she called the office that is over ours and made them drive all the way out here.  On top of it we were very busy.  Luckly we got through it and the day turned out to be alot better than what it was.  As of right now I am hatin Mondays.

Truman State Park, MO

Oh happy Days!!! Today Chango and I had the day off and so since we have a new vehicle we decided to go to the Lake of the Ozarks.  We chose a part of the lake that isn't too far from us called Harry Truman State Park.  So we loaded up our to Pit Bulls, Bia and Rhyno, and headed out to the lake for the day. It was a great choice. The place we found was so beautiful.  We pulled off by the visitor center and got down our fishing polls and the dogs and headed towards the water.  Since Rhyno is a new comer to the house we had to "baptise" him by water.  Which just means that he get's thrown into any body of water.  (All of our dogs have been thrown into either a lake or river to swim back to shore.  Don't worry it isn't far for them to swim and also we just toss them as far as we can.) At first Rhyno didn't like going into the water, I couldn't understand why, I was in the water standing and I just wanted to sit down in it and enjoy only I didn't have my swimming suit or a change of clothes.  We also went to the damn and Chango fished alittle there.  The rocks were too high for Rhyno to get down so I stayed up top with the dogs while he was down fishing.  I can't wait to go back maybe for a few days and maybe to camp.  Oh how I love to camp!!!!

2001 Ford Excursion

I am so happy!!! Today we got a New-Old vehicle.  Its a 2001 Ford Excursion.  I am just so happy because now we have a vehicle to go somewhere if we want, when we want.  Yes the Excursions are big SUV's but its alright because we need a big vehicle even though it is just Chango and I.  We can easly load it up for a camping trip and not worry about things not fitting.  Put our babies in it and they won't be camped to death or steping all over eachother.  I can even get a car load of church members and head to the Visitor Center, or Liberty Jail, or Far West, MO or to some of the other places here in Missouri that has our church history.  Oh but it is just nice to have a vehicle that is dependable, registered and I can hop in it and go when  ever I want!!!! 

Waverly Post Office

As of Today the Waverly Post Office is MINE. ALL MINE. LOL.  That's right I am incharge of the Waverly Post Office.  No I don't make the big bucks but I do make better money than what I was making at the market.  Hoping all will go well for me!!!

Life has been busy but fun

This week has been so busy!!! But man has it been fun also.  Chango and I went to the MO State fair on Sunday.  We had a blast, Chango got drunk, we watched the tractor pull well what was left of it for the day, spent tones of money, but most of all we bought matching wedding rings.  For months I have been wanting to buy our wedding rings that look alike but for some reason or another I haven't done it.  But at the fair we found some rings that were matching, at first I thought I was going to be disappointed because I couldn't find the same ring in my size till the jeweler said he could stretch one of the rings one full size.  I was so happy. It feels different not wearing my mother's wedding rings since I have worn them since I was in elementary school, but at the same time it is nice looking at my ring knowing that where ever my husband is he too is wearing the same thing, our symbol of love for each other
 Monday and Tuesday I was in Kansas City, MO for training.  I got a job at the local post office.  The best thing about training was afterwards I was able to go and meet with Chango and we were able to go to dinner together.  I loved the time I spent with him after he was done working.  
 Wednesday to Today I was training at my post office. OTJ or on the job training is what they call it.  Its nice, although all this week I have been getting up early and since I am not used to it it has been very difficult, at least now at night I am going to bed at a decent time!!! Tonight I go and work at the market. I wish I didn't have to go in in less than 2 hours, for I want to go and take a little nap, oh well work is work.  I just have to say that so far this month has been full of blessings, and it has really helped Chango and I get closer together.  I love my husband with all my heart and I can not see myself with out him, yes he has faults, but you know what those are my faults, my husband, my love and no one elses. lets see what next week is to bring!

What was Heaven was like before....

At times I find myself wondering what Heaven was like before I came to this earth. At times I find my self wondering what Heaven will be like when it is my time to leave this earth. At times I can't wait to get to this end of life. Don't get me wrong, I love living, love my life even though times are tough. But I just can't help wanting to get to Heaven. To see who I will recognize. To see my mom is the main reason! The love I have for my mom and the yearning to be with her again is overcoming. That doesn't mean I don't want to see my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Mostly when I think of going to Heaven all I think about is being with my family, I believe the family has an important role up there, that's why we are in families right now. Oh to see what Heaven is like!