Waverly Post Office

As of Today the Waverly Post Office is MINE. ALL MINE. LOL.  That's right I am incharge of the Waverly Post Office.  No I don't make the big bucks but I do make better money than what I was making at the market.  Hoping all will go well for me!!!

Life has been busy but fun

This week has been so busy!!! But man has it been fun also.  Chango and I went to the MO State fair on Sunday.  We had a blast, Chango got drunk, we watched the tractor pull well what was left of it for the day, spent tones of money, but most of all we bought matching wedding rings.  For months I have been wanting to buy our wedding rings that look alike but for some reason or another I haven't done it.  But at the fair we found some rings that were matching, at first I thought I was going to be disappointed because I couldn't find the same ring in my size till the jeweler said he could stretch one of the rings one full size.  I was so happy. It feels different not wearing my mother's wedding rings since I have worn them since I was in elementary school, but at the same time it is nice looking at my ring knowing that where ever my husband is he too is wearing the same thing, our symbol of love for each other
 Monday and Tuesday I was in Kansas City, MO for training.  I got a job at the local post office.  The best thing about training was afterwards I was able to go and meet with Chango and we were able to go to dinner together.  I loved the time I spent with him after he was done working.  
 Wednesday to Today I was training at my post office. OTJ or on the job training is what they call it.  Its nice, although all this week I have been getting up early and since I am not used to it it has been very difficult, at least now at night I am going to bed at a decent time!!! Tonight I go and work at the market. I wish I didn't have to go in in less than 2 hours, for I want to go and take a little nap, oh well work is work.  I just have to say that so far this month has been full of blessings, and it has really helped Chango and I get closer together.  I love my husband with all my heart and I can not see myself with out him, yes he has faults, but you know what those are my faults, my husband, my love and no one elses. lets see what next week is to bring!

What was Heaven was like before....

At times I find myself wondering what Heaven was like before I came to this earth. At times I find my self wondering what Heaven will be like when it is my time to leave this earth. At times I can't wait to get to this end of life. Don't get me wrong, I love living, love my life even though times are tough. But I just can't help wanting to get to Heaven. To see who I will recognize. To see my mom is the main reason! The love I have for my mom and the yearning to be with her again is overcoming. That doesn't mean I don't want to see my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Mostly when I think of going to Heaven all I think about is being with my family, I believe the family has an important role up there, that's why we are in families right now. Oh to see what Heaven is like!

Power of the Book of Mormon

I just finished reading the Book of Mormon and I must say it has such a great power and spirit to it. I enjoy reading it when I do read, and I don't think that I ever get bored by the stories it has. The Book of Mormon testifies so much of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Everytime on of the prophets of the Book of Mormon speak of their love for our Reedemer you can feel it. I tend to read it for a short time but then I find myself engolfed in it. I feel as if I am their in their shoes writing it. I see in my mind the things they describe. I can't wait to get into the book of Mosiah, the speeches are so powerful. And then there is the book of Alma, he calls all to repentance and it is so strong! The last book, Moroni, wow is all I can say. When I read that book I feel he is speaking directly to me. I wish all who I know would accept the Book of Mormon, it has such love, faith and a spirit that can not be explained. To witness that one must read it!!

The bad and the good

These past few days have been a little rough and so that has kept me from writing. On June 30th Chango's uncle passed away. All day at work it was hard for me because I couldn't be at home to try to comfort him. Then later that night I got a phone call saying that my aunt was in the hospital with organ failure. Just that bad news sent me over the edge, and the jar that I lock my feelings into was running over and everything came out. For the past couple of months I have dealt with bad news of family members passing away both on my side and my husbands. First it was my mother in law, then my cousin's mom, both of whom I didn't know well but my heart ached for the family members. And then my uncle in law and my aunt. It was just so hard on me. Usually I handle death. I've learned to cope with it over the years, after all I believe we will all be together until judgement day. But I know not all believe like that and so my heart aches for them. On a lighter note, I received a call from the post office here in town, I went through my interview and background check, which took almost a month and so I had to go in for a drug test. Good ol' pee in a cup. So now I am waiting for the results to come back, I know it will be clean but the waiting is what is a killer. Our 88 GMCsuburban that we bought should, hopefully, be done this weekend. I can't wait till it is we need a car bad. So it just proves that Heavenly Father blesses us even when it seems like nothing is going right. Just got to keep the faith!

Polygamy

So being born Mormon and being raised in my church we have a heritage with polygamy. It is a revelation that was given and when Utah wanted to become a state the church banned polygamy and also the Prophet at the time had a revalation from God to stop the practice. Some didn't like that and so they broke off and formed the Fundamentalist church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints. I just don't understand why it is illegal. The supreme court ruled it illegal more than 100 years ago. But they couldn't give a great reason why. Yes in our society we tend to think that marriage is only between a man and a woman but that isn't the case for everyone. There are gay couples, who now can marry in California. So why not allow it for religious purposes? People say to separate church and government, we say that this is the land of the free but yet we are not allow to practice our religion. I can see if they are marrying off underage girls, I am not saying this is right arrest the people who are doing that. But for ones who are consenting adults wanting to do this with other consenting adults then let them. I myself could not be in a polygamist relationship but if I did believe that as part of my religion then I would want to practice it.
UPDATE: Since I wrote this, and even before, polygamy has been on my mind.  I still don't think I could ever have a polygamist relationship.  I have even questioned myself to see if I even think I can share my husband with another woman and the answer always comes back to no.  We haven't had any children of our own and I think that if he were to take on another wife and she were to become pregnant right away it would crush me.  I can't imagine him spending his time with someone else either because when he is off of work I want him to spend all of his time with me.  The only thing that sounds appealing is that there would be another woman to help with the home duties, instead of me alway nagging him to help.  Do I think about polygamy? Do I wonder what my life would be like if I were in a relationship like that? Yes to both.  Do I see the struggles in it? Yes I do.  The show Sister Wives is a wonderful show, it shows their struggles but at the sametime their unity in the family.  I think I will always think about polygamy, I just don't think I could ever become one.

Tired tired tired

Lately I have been so tired and lazy. I don't know what is going on. I am wanting to just sleep, lie around the house and just plain not doing anything. I haven't even been able to write on this blog because I don't feel like it. I do go to work because I have to but while I am there I wish not to be. I wonder what is going on. Is it physical, emotional or the heat. It has been really hot here and dry and I know people don't feel like doing things during the heat. But my house has ac and its nice and cool in it and yet I still can't seem to get motivated to do anything. I don't even feel like hanging out with friends. Thursday is my day off and hopefully I can somehow motivate myself!

Wanting to change me

So I am a bit of a tom boy, a bit lazy. I don't care to dress up. I wear jeans and a tee shirt. I only shave my legs when my hubby gets mad or I feel the hair move when I walk. I never wear shorts so I don't have to be afraid of people seeing my legs. I never wear makeup unless I want to or its a special night, plus I cant wear foundation because I sweat easy. But I do want to give myself a make over because if I feel attractive I know my husband will be more attracted to me. I guess I am on my first steps I am shaving my legs and I even painted my nails. I just need to spend the money on new clothes!

A Loving Letter

Dearest Love, Lately it has seemed that you are not the man I married. And although it saddens me, I have made up my mind!! I am going to: hack off your tongue, dig your fingernails off with a rusted knife, clip off your toes with pruning shears, pluck out your eyes with hot nails, and carve out your heart with a spoon. When I am done I am going to make you the most delicious soup you have ever tasted with all my new ingredients. Don't worry my love, I will lie you in bed after you are full. Did I mention the bed is six feet below the ground? I got you some bugs to keep you company while you rest there uncomfortably. But remember while you rest to think of how much I love you and take care of you!! Sincerely, your loving wife for all time and eternity!

My Love One (poem)

My love for you will always run true. It's deeper than the ocean too! The love I feel will never go away. For you are my sun in the morning bay. Waking up in your arms brings me such bliss. Each moment with you I never want to miss. Say you'll stay, say you'll be mine, to love and hold forever and all time.

Tiny blood suckers

Never ever in my life have I seen mosquito as huge as the ones here in Missouri! At home they are tiny little blood suckers that you can hear buzz in you ear but never see. Nope not the ones here, they are so huge that you have to make sure they don't carry you back to their nest and suck on you for days on end. I hate to go out side after the sun sets because they will attack you in no time at all. Oh and if it is super hot and muggy they are all over you like stink on poo! Can't wait till winter comes, no mosquito then!!

Enjoying childhood

Lately I have been going to garage sales and thrift stores and I have found myself buying things that my mom had when I was young. I have been buying her "china" that she had and used only during special occasions. I have bought other things that remind me of my childhood. I hold my childhood dear to me. I may not remember all of it but I know I was happy and loved by my mom and dad and I wish and desire to just turn back time and live in my childhood forever.

Not feeling it =(

Today was my day off and so I wanted to get things done. It started off good, me and my friend went to Amish country and I found some really good deals. Then I came home and decided to put my shot glasses and insulators out to display them. I want to make out house look more like a home and the only way I know how is to decorate it. So after that I spoke to Chango on the phone then my step-mom. Today I didn't really eat and so it caught up to me. I wasn't feeling well so I cooked dinner, hamburger meat with zucchini onion and tomato which were bought from the Amish produce farm and I served it over noodles and added cheese. So now here I sit content off of food but yet not feeling well, I think I am still needing to get my blood sugar up from not eating that well all day. Tomorrow I have to go to work in the morning and then in the afternoon I have to go get the dogs the rabies shots and tagged. Hopefully I will feel better!!

Yes! I successfully set up my blog to where I can text my thoughts instead of going to the website. I love doing that. I have my Facebook set up the same way and it is so easy. I find it a lot easier to text it then to go through my phone to the website then post my status for Facebook. And now I can do it for my blog. I was without my blog for a few weeks and it was annoying, since the website changed it I couldn't access it through my browser. Talk about frustrating. But now it won't be!!!

This is a test....

My jobs

It seems like the life of a wife is to work work and work some more. It's actually pretty hard. Now that I look at it I think I rather have the husbands role instead of he wife's role. I work, granted it is a part time job but I tend to work at least 5 days a week. But my job does not end when I punch out for the night. When I get home I have to cook dinner, even if it is just me eating I still have to cook; feed the cats, dogs, rats, and mice and make sure they have water; and water the garden. On my days off I have to wash clothes, pick up the house, make lunch or dinner, feed and animals, clean what ever else needs cleaning, and run errands. On bill paying days I have to add that part in also. Then if my husband is home that's a totally different story and things get jumbled around or new jobs get added. At times I get over whelmed and all I want to do is just lounge around my home on my days off, but there is always something that I have to do. The jobs of a wife is never done and honestly to me a wife never has a "day off". But I don't think I would trade my life for another...

Finding things to write

I try so hard to write everyday but at times it seems so hard because I don't know what to write about. Sometimes my day is uneventful. The only thing that went on today was that Chango and I spent part of the day together. Then I went to supper out with a friend. (supper out is a thing that the local churches do every other Tuesday. They make dinner for the town and who ever wants to go they can.) During dinner we spoke to the Baptist preacher. The only thing that I can remember is thinking how is it that people can not believe in the Book of Mormon. I have a strong testimony of it. That if you read it and pray about it that it will help you in your personal relationship with our Heavenly Father. I can't believe how some people think it is contradictory to the Bible. If only they will read it they will see that it helps pull you closer to our Heavenly Father. I feel such a strong spirit that comes from it and I truly believe it is another testament of our Savior, Jesus Christ. Ever since I have read it I feel so closer to God and my love for Jesus Christ is so much stronger. I know that God is our loving father in heaven and that Jesus came to the earth and suffered for our sins. Some people think that my church follows Joseph Smith and that through him we maybe saved. But I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God, that God is an unchanging God and so therefore he does speak to his children through prophets like in old time. And I know for a fact and believe with all my heart that the only way to be saved and return to our Father in heaven is through Jesus Christ!

Keeping my fingers crossed.

So today I received a phone call from the post master here in town. Last Tuesday I had an interview, and honestly I thought it went well and I had a feeling that I was going to get hired. Today she called me and had to explain a couple of more things that she just found out. She just said that if hired I would have to work full time until the post office headquarter bumped it down to part time. Then I would have those hours until they found a postmaster for this branch. So I would probably have to quit Tyler's. That part sucked because I dont want to quit I wanted to keep it as maybe apart time, on the weekend job. But at the same time could I really work two jobs? The po job works 8 hours a day and on Saturdays I believe they close at noon, which if I am off by 1 or even 3 I can work Tylers till close. (the post master here just drove by my work). Decisions, I guess I just have to talk with Paula and Cody and wait to see what kc says...

Emotions (poem)

RAGE: Can't anyone hear me screaming? PAIN: Locked deep inside my brain. HURT: I cry but no one seems to hear me. WOUNDED: How can I make this go away? BROKEN: The love you give just isn't enough. DARK: To make this cloud disappear. DEPRESSED: I can not stay like this anymore. DEFEATED: I will gladly welcome the kiss of Death!

About time!!!

So I guess this site is making changes or have made them already. Just like Facebook, they can never leave a good thing alone. I had so much to blog about but I couldn't because the site was telling my phone that blogger no longer supported my browser. Ugh! What a nightmare. I was getting frustrated and wanting to close my account and open up a new one that allowed my phone to access it. And so today while at work I was looking up blogs for mobile and lo and behold it was blogger mobile. And so I sent a text to the site to register thinking somehow I can add my existing blog or link them and what joy what blitz I was able to link my phone to my blog!!! So now just like Facebook, I can text my thoughts when ever I want!! And then of coarse when I go to the library to get on the internet I can edit it to how I like. I am just so happy right now that I can blog from my phone again!!! OH how the Lord helps out when you truely need. Something, even if it is small like being able to blog again!