Where does the time go?

Where does the time go? No one ever said it would drift on by like a leaf blowing in the wind. No one ever said that you would work yourself to death. No one ever said adulting was hard.
No one ever said that you would loose your friends and family at a blink of an eye. No one ever said that the days, weeks and years would run together like one giant river. 
At times it seems like all I do is wake up, go to work, come home, feed the animals and the husband if he is home, go to bed and start the same ol' thing over again.  I look back at my younger years and it seems like I had more time to do things.  It seemed like I had more friends to hang out with.  It seems like family was closer than it is now a days.  But then it could be because I am out here all alone in this state.  No friends, no family around, just me and my husband.  Would I change it, YES I would.  I would have my dad living here in this state with me.  
It seems like just yesterday I was going to elementary school, gosh that was more than 30 years ago.  Then came middle school, high school, college, young adult life, and now almost mid life.  Time goes by way too fast.  And the worst part, I have this blog, my journal and yet I do not capture the best times in my life like I should.

DNA

Ever since ancestry came out I have been interested in how the DNA pool works in finding your long lost relatives.  So I decided that since my family knows nothing really about their ancestors I would take a test.  The wait was the longest, it seemed to drag on and drag on.  And then one day it said it was ready.  Boy was I surprised!!!!

Ethnicity Estimate

Native American—North, Central, South58%

Central & Southern Mexico

Spain18%

Italy10%

Portugal3%

Cameroon, Congo, & Southern Bantu Peoples2%

Sardinia2%

Mali2%

France2%

Ireland & Scotland1%

Middle East1%

Ivory Coast/Ghana1%

I think I was more suprised because I was 58% Native American!!! That was more than what I was thinking I was, at the most I was thinking I was about a quarter Native American. Actually what the new

New Swiffer Sweeper wet jet crochet reusable cover

After making Swiffer covers for my sister-in-law, I looked at my Swiffer and noticed I had the new design of wet jet. I searched the internet for a pattern and couldn't find any. So to the drawing board I went.
This is my own design, if any mistakes are found please let me know.

Items needed:
*H/5.0mm hook
*2oz/56.7g peaches and cream yarn or any cotton yarn
*Tapestry needle for weaving in ends

Sc=single crochet
Dc=double crochet
Hdc=half double crochet

Chain 20
Row1: SC in second choice from hook and all the way across, ch1 (19sc)

Row2-6: Sc in each stitch, ch1 (19sc)

Row7: sc in only 13sc, ch 1 and turn (13sc this makes the hole for the Jets to spra

Row8: sc in 13sc, ch 1 (13sc)

Row9: sc in 13, ch 7 (13sc+7ch this will start to make the other side of the cover)

Row10: Sc in second choice from hook and remaining chains, sc across in remaining sc, ch 1 (19sc)

Row11-13: Sc in each sc space, ch2 (19sc)

Row14: 1 HDC in front loop across, ch2 (19hdc)

Row15: *1dc, 1sc in next stitch, *repeat across alternating DC and sc, ch2 (10dc & 9sc)

Row16: *1sc, 1dc in next stitch, *repeat across alternating DC and sc, ch2 (10sc & 9dc)

Row 17-39: repeat rows 15 & 16

Row40: hdc in each stitch (19hdc)

Row 41-43: sc in each stitch (19sc)

Row 44:sc in only 13sc, ch 1 and turn (13sc this makes the hole for the Jets to spray)

Row45: sc in 13sc, ch 1 (13sc)

Row46: sc in 13, ch 7 (13sc+7ch this will be the mirror image of the other side)

Row47-52: Sc in each sc space, ch2 (19sc)

Fasten off. To attach the sides fold at the half double crochet and either use single crochet or whip Stitch or any stitch to attach sides.

Exploring the Scriptures: Anna

I always have wanted to know more about the Scriptures.  I find that reading them is never enough.  So I have decided that I am going to pick a topic out of the Bible Dictionary and explore a topic.  I have noticed that there are people mentioned in the Bible, but at times they are only mentioned once.  One such person that I found was Anna. 

"(New Testament form of Hannah.) A prophetess of the tribe of Asher who, after a short married life of seven years, had been, at the time of our Lord’s birth, a widow for 84 years. She was one of those who greeted the infant Jesus at His presentation in the temple"

 Here's what the scripture in Luke 2:36-38

"36 And there was one Anna, a prophetess, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Aser: she was of a great age, and had lived with an husband seven years from her virginity;
37 And she was a widow of about fourscore and four years, which departed not from the temple, but servedGod with fastings and prayers night and day.
38 And she coming in that instant gave thanks likewise unto the Lord, and spake of him to all them that looked for redemption in Jerusalem."

Who is Anna and why is she only mentioned once.  We know from reading the verses that she was

• A Prophetess
• Daughter of Phanuel
• From the tribe of Asher
• Was 84 years old
• A widow
• MAY have lived in the temple

But why was she mentioned?  Was she important?  Could there have been a possibility that she was more important than what is lead to believe in those 3 verses. Why isn't she mentioned else where, as in the book of Mathew, Mark.
So I took LDS.org and the internet to find more clues to who Anna was. LDS.org explains why she was mentioned in a way that makes is understandable:

The Spirit’s witness to the divinity of Jesus was not to be confined to a man. There was at that time in the temple a godly woman of great age, Anna, a prophetess who devoted herself exclusively to temple service; and she, being inspired of God, recognized her Redeemer, and testified of Him to all about her. Both Joseph and Mary marveled at the things that were spoken of the Child; seemingly they were not yet able to comprehend the majesty of Him who had come to them through so miraculous a conception and so marvelous a birth.

I love how it states, "The Spirit's witness to the divinity of Jesus was NOT to be confined to a man."  Any one can testify of Jesus.  Anna was a prophetess because she prophesied about Jesus Christ, that he is the Redeemer.
Another website I found theopolisinstitute.comExplains about Anna further. 

"With Simeon and Anna, we have the testimony of two reliable witnesses. It is important to remember where they are. They are in the temple. Even before Jesus can speak or show Himself the Christ, even before His baptism, God announces to His faithful people the birth of His Son. God the proud Father allows faithful Israel to see the Son of God and welcome Him into His Temple. What a contrast to unfaithful Israel. Herod already wants Jesus dead, and when Jesus grows up, temple leaders will scream for His crucifixion. Simeon and Anna shows us how the true people of God receives Jesus: Jesus is Holy to the Lord. He is the Christ. Praise God for preserving a true people for himself. Unless God adopted us into His family, we’d be blind to His Son and oppose His work in the world.

In Anna’s days, there were plenty of reasons for her to avoid going to the Temple. Her fasting and prayers speak to a dilemma in her day. Anna’s fasting recognizes the need for a redeemer. She’s removing herself from the desecration, the leaven of self-righteousness all too common, the distraction of people who want the Temple to serve their purposes rather than God’s, a distraction even today found among the halls of God’s house.This behaviour, fasting and praying, is Anna’s elegy of her situation in order to provoke God to act on her behalf. She fasts from food, becomes physically hungry, and this physical hunger reminds her of her hunger for God to whom she prays for relief. Anna’s plea is for God to bring about the redemption of Jerusalem. We join her ranks when we pray “Lord, rescue your people from our enemies encircling us all around.”

That site has so much more about Anna, which I will leave you to explore on your own.
But now that I have looked up about Anna I have noticed that her role in the Bible was very important even though there is little about her.  She is important because she is

• a second witness
• a righteous person
• a prophet to testify of Jesus Christ

My thoughts on General Conference 2017 talk

Those of you who are familuar with the Latter-day Saints know that we hold two General Conference meetings a year.  One in April and the other in October.  Brief explanation for those who don't know, its when our Prophet and other leaders come together and address the church followers.  They give us inspired talks.

One talk that I really felt a strong spirit in was entitled

Don't look around, Look up by Elder Yoon Hawn Choi of the Seventy

He made some really good points that stuck out to me.  I'm going to quote some of his talk and add my input/feelings that I got from his talk.

"One day, a few months after my baptism, I heard some members criticizing each other in church. I was very disappointed. I went home and told my father that maybe I should not go to church anymore. It was difficult to see members criticize others like that. After listening, my father taught me that the gospel had been restored and it is perfect but members are not yet, neither himself nor me. He firmly said, “Do not lose your faith because of the people around you, but build a strong relationship with Jesus Christ. Don’t look around, look up!”"

There have actually been times in my life when I have allowed the way others influence my attendence of church.  I'm not saying that I always attend church.  I am far from doing that.  But there have been times where I have not liked the way a person has acted towards another and even myself to allow that to interfere with my worship.  The only person this is hurting is ME. Why do we allow this to happen.  It takes away from us, not the other person who we have felt has offended us.  NO ONE is perfect, church is not on this earth for the perfect person.  It is here for the sinners who need to come closer to our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.  We need to set aside the natural man and choose to serve, and learn from our Heavenly Father. I love the quote "Don't loose your faith because of the people around you."  We must not let others choose how we worship.

"Dear brothers and sisters, it is not easy for us to recognize the love of Heavenly Father when we look around with our temporal eyes, because we see inconvenience, loss, burdens, or loneliness first. On the other hand, we can see the blessings beyond when we look up. The Lord has revealed, “When we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated.”

There are probably many blessings that i have missed because I am one who tends to look around with my temporal eyes.  I wish I didn't.  I wish that I can by some miricle wake up and find myself looking up towards Heaven and my Heavenly Father and never looking around.  I wish I can be one of those who do a miraculas turn around and strive every day to serve Heavenly Father. Why do I find it hard to wake up, pray to my Heavenly Father and thnk Him for another day at life?  Why do I find it hard to take 5 minutes out of my life to read His word?  5 minutes, that's 1 verse. Can it truely be that hard?  I say yes it can.  But then I don't have the reason as to why it is that hard.  It could be that my temporal eyes are looking around, looking at the loss, the burdens and loneliness of life.  But how, How do you break away from this???

"Elder M. Russell Ballard said: “If you choose to become inactive or to leave the restored Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, where will you go? What will you do? The decision to ‘walk no more’ with Church members and the Lord’s chosen leaders will have a long-term impact that cannot always be seen right now.”6 President Thomas S. Monson encouraged us, “May we ever choose the harder right instead of the easier wrong.”7It is never too late to look up to Jesus Christ. His arms are always open to you. There are generations before us and after us depending on us to follow Christ so that we can be an eternal family of God."

This sums it up. When we turn from our Heavenly Father and walk the path of sin it is alot harder to turn from that path and walk the right way.  It's hard to give up adictions like smoking, drinking, not reading your scriptures or even praying.  And when you get to that low point in life, you feel as if you are alone.  But you are never alone.  Heavenly Father is always with you.  You just have to turn towards Him and ask for forgiveness.  Our brother Jesus Christ is always waiting with open arms to welcome you back.  He is always willing to forgive, if we just repent and ask for his forgiveness.  Heavenly Father is a loving father, he doesn't want any of us to go astray.  He wants all of us to return unto him when our mortal life is over.

"It’s not always easy to look up when your parents are opposed to the gospel, when you are a member of a small Church unit, when your spouse is not a member, when you are still single although you did your best to marry, when a child has strayed, when you find yourself a single parent, when you are physically or emotionally challenged, when you are a victim in a disaster, and so on. Hold on to your faith in those hard times. Look up to Christ for strength, balance, and healing. Through the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, “all things shall work together for [your] good.”8

It isn't that easy when your spouse isn't part of the church.  That's one excuse I use.  I always think, well if Chango was a memeber of the church then going to church would be easier, reading the scriptures would be easier.  I always think that having someone else to share the experience with makes it easier.  But I must do it myself.  No one else can do it for me.  I must do it.

i just dont know

it's funny....i just don't know why i write this blog.  i feel like no one ever reads it. maybe its just for me. maybe this is a way to get my words out and keep my mind sane.  maybe someone is out there reading this and some how it is helping them i hope it is.  so if you are reading this blog then maybe you need some words of inspiration, you need some uplifting in your life. and maybe you are just helping me get what i need out of my mind and are silently helping me.

An interesting thing came into my mind today as I sat in the employee lounge at my work, which just happens to be in a basement, it was nice being down there alone with just my lunch and thoughts. And boy did my thoughts run away.

I had met with the missionaries earlier in the day to discuss our weekly Bible study chapters. Knowing I might be on a side which I do not really care to work on, I asked the Elders to leave me with a uplifting word from the Book of Mormon to get me through the night. Alma 11:40 came to the elders mind

"And he shall come into the world to redeem his people; and he shall take upon him the transgressions of those who believe on his name; and these are they that shall have eternal life, and salvation cometh to none else."

As I pondered these words again I thought of what one of the elders said through believing in Jesus Christ and good works we all will be saved.

Good works, huh. That led me to think of a question that was asked this Sunday on Sunday school:
                                                   

                                                    "What does being the Lord’s covenant

                                                    people have to do with how we dress,
                                                    act, and keep the commandments of
                                                    God?"

I have the first part down which is believing in Jesus Christ that he is my savior and my redeemer. That he was sent by Heavenly Father to die on the cross for my sins. He is my big brother, my middle man, my shoulder to lean on. I may not always remember in my trials and tribulations to always call upon Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to get me through my troubles. I don't always feast upon his words everyday. It's hard for me to pray, or actually it is hard for me to remember to pray. At times I kind of envy people that remember to do it, it's nice to be in a fast food restaurant and see a couple bow their heads and say a prayer before they eat their meal. Sometimes, and I try so hard not to do it, I do take the Lord's name in vain. It's kind of hard when you are used to cussing, but I am trying to do better and trying to choose different words instead. I am trying to go to church every week, even if it is only for one hour out of the three hours we go. I've actually had friends who ask how I can go to church for three hours, but honestly since I have grown up in the church it doesn't bother me. I love it, because the first hour is our Sacrament hour or mass to some people. Our second hour is Sunday School, and then the third hour is like Sunday School only women go to one class and the men go to another class. And honestly, when I am at church going through the different classes/hours it doesn't feel like I have been at church for three hours at all. Sometimes I am sad at the end of church because I had such a wonderful, spiritual experience I don't want it to end.
So how does good works go hand in hand with believing in Jesus Christ?  It's hard for me to explain.  But we can ask ourselves, How is it that if you believe in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and still do wicked things?  I know that in my heart that can't really be, for you can not have two masters.

                                                         24 ¶No man can serve two masters:
                                                              for either he will hate the one,
                                                              and love the other; or else he will
                                                              hold to the one, and despise the other. 
                                                             Ye cannot serve God and mammon.

If you truely follow Jesus Christ in your heart, then you will strive to not only keep the commandments of our Heavenly Father, but also follow the teachings of Jesus.  When he was here on earth, he helped the weak, the sick, the sinful, and poor.  He told us to be converted as little children.  If you truely have faith in Jesus Christ, you will strive to folloow the commandments, which in turn betters yourself.  Not only that but you will also learn to forgive others and do unto them as you would have them do unto you.  You just can't hold a grudge against someone and another for total forgiveness if you haven't forgiven in your heart. 
                                                      

                                                       13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter:
                                                       Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this
                                                       is the whole duty of man.
                                                       14 For God shall bring every work into judgment,
                                                       with every secret thing, whether it be good,
                                                       or whether it be evil.

My Ghost Story

It's getting close to Halloween, and so I start really thinking about hauntings, ghosts, you know things that are scary. I love Halloween, not the kiddy holiday, but the spooks, ghouls, haunted houses...things that go bump in the night. I have always had a fascination for ghosts. I think it is because when I was around 5ish, I kept seeing ghosts in my room and since then I am in love with ghosts and haunted houses. (note to self: finish story in other blog) I don't get freaked out when I am in a spooky place it is so much fun for me. But, I am getting off track.....SO, since I have been looking up Haunted places, haunted hay rides, ghosts, I figured out I would tell one of my stories.


Back in 2001, I think it was November to be exact, Chango and I moved to Oklahoma and was living with my sister-in-law in her apartment. Her apartment was pretty nice, and the best thing about it was that it had a fireplace. So Chango and I decided to make our bed in front of the fireplace and watch TV. I wish I could remember what we were watching, but out of the corner of my eye to my left, I saw a white long haired cat walking up to me. So I reached out my hand as to pet it. When I looked to my left, to make sure I was actually going to pet the cat, it took a couple of seconds to go from the long haired cat to a almost fully deflated balloon. It kind of freaked me out once I realized what was going on because my sister-in-law didn't own a white long haired cat at the time, she owned a short black haired cat. I never saw the white cat again.

John Travolta and Swordfish

Today was pretty exciting. My dad sent me my dollar bill that has John Travolta's signature on it. How did I get it? Well back in 2000, John was filming the movie Swordfish in Ventura, CA. At the time I was living there with my brother, his wife and kids. Our neighbors, mike and jay, said they were going to go to where they were filming the movie and asked me if I wanted to go. I ended up taking one of my nieces with me and we all waited, lined up at the edge of the sidewalk for them to finish filming for the day. Finally, here came John Travolta and Huge Jackman. Huge gave a few autographs and then left with a few boos behind him. But John stayed, and signed one side of the street then came over to sign our side. I was so happy, and screaming, but when he got infront of me all I could do was stare, hand him my dollar bill and ask if I could shake his hand. Yup, I got to touch John Travolta, OH MY!!! It was so exciting to see him, not just on the screen but in person. He has been my favorite actor since I saw him in Staying Alive and Grease.


Some of the pictures posted here were taken off of the internet from different sites. They are pictures of the film that was filmed in Ventura, CA (my family's vacation spot)

 

The huge tree in back is where the San Buenaventura Mission is.
Ventura, CA



This is the building that was used for the Bank sceens
Swordfish





Downtown Ventura, CA
Swordfish



Downtown Ventura, CA
Swordfish

This is the letter Dad wrote to me.

This is the letter Dad sent to me.
He isn't well educated, and it shows in his spelling
but no matter what I love my Dad.

Pit bulls, world's most misunderstood dog

Yup you read that right, Pit Bulls, or pits, are the most misunderstood dog. People think they are vicious but I see a side of them that is loving, loyal, forgiving, protective of it's pack, easy to get along, lazy, hyper, tough, strong, and sometimes stinky (farts) wonderful dog!

The term pit bull is a generic term used to describe dogs with similar physical characteristics. Usually a "pit bull" is considered one of several breeds including the American Pit Bull Terrier, the American Staffordshire Terrier, the Staffordshire Bull Terrier, Bull Terrier or any mix thereof. In some parts of the world, the American Bulldog and Dogo Argentino are also classified as a "Pit Bull-type" dog, despite major genetic differences. Any dog that is mixed with a "bully breed" may also be called a "pit bull" including those that are descended from the English Bulldog, French Bulldog, Boston Terrier and Cane Corso.[3] The pit bull is not a distinct breed which may make it difficult for experts to identify. Any mixed breed dog may be labelled a "pit bull" if they have the characteristic square shaped head

I am a proud momma of 2 pit bulls.

My female is named Bia, she is a rescue that I did. While living in Oakland, CA Chango and I were living in a studio apartment that was a house that was converted into apartments, there was a family that moved in who happened to have a Pit bull. She was a cute-brindle dog, very friendly to people, didn't like my dog at all, and was left to roam the streets or locked in a cage just big enough to stand and turn around. One day the father of the family was talking to a friend about her saying he didn't want her anymore and was going to put her down. Me being a dog lover, and also loving the way pits looked, talked to my sister and we came up with a plan to "steal" the dog. Finally, they allowed her to roam the streets again. I was going to put my plan into motion that night, but instead (something was just telling me to..) I asked the father if he still wanted to get rid of her because I had a place that she could go to. He told me he had to talk it out with his family, and about 15 min later they came back with the dog saying to take her. That was all I needed, the dog was mine. And so she became part of my family, and with the adoption I decided to rename her from her old name, Coco yuck what an ugly name, to Bia after Greek mythology. Bia (the greek goddess/spirit is everything Pit Bulls can be)

BIA was the spirit (daimona) of force, power, might, bodily strength and compulsion. She and her sister Nike (Victory), and brothers Kratos (Strength) and Zelos (Rivalry), were the winged enforcers of Zeus who stood in attendance about his throne.

My male is Rhyno. Actually his full name is Rhyno the Chillon. Oh my goodness, he is 70lbs of pure bone head. He is still a puppy, and I laugh as I right that because he is just one huge monster. He doesn't realize his large stature, and my foot or leg or body feels the pressure of his weight as he "tries" to be a lap dog. We traveled three hours to Carthage, MO to buy him and three hours back home. On the ride home he did nothing but cry, and cry and cry. So I decided to name him Chillon which is Spanish for crybaby. As he grew older, and he started sprouting I would watch him run from the living room into the dinning room chasing a cat or running to his food bowl. The bigger he got, the more I was thinking to myself he is looking like a Rhinoceros, it was so cute how his big blue but would look as he walked away. And so I changed his name from Chillon to Rhyno. Then I was thinking some more, he is a Rhyno but he is still a crybaby so, *sigh* he became Rhyno the Chillon. And I must say he is a CRY BABY!!! I can't go outside without him because he is crying at the door, or when I take him for a car ride and I stop at the store to get something to drink forget it, he is embarrassing!! But he is my baby, and a big brat.

These are just two stories about my pits, I have two nephews who have pits, a step sister who has one.  I would have to say people are racist against pits.  They are the most misunderstood breed out there.  If I could I would own one or two more pits, but I think I have to wait till my small dogs pass.  I know one thing though, IF I were to get another pit, I would make sure to get it already in adulthood.  My female is so opposite from my male, she is kicked back while he is hyper.  But I can say one thing.  I LOVE THIS BREED OF DOG!!!!!!!! 

Looking back: Empty Bed

I was looking back on some of the earlier, and when I mean earlier mostly the first few, entries I made. One of them caught my eye, Empty Bed. I didn't know what, OK I mean I couldn't remember what I wrote in that entry and I think I was wondering to myself why I was calling it Empty Bed. So I opened it up and read it. At first it made me cry, because it took me back to those feelings I had back then when Chango had first left to go train to be a truck driver. I had forgotten how bad I felt, how alone. I remember crying myself to sleep almost every night for a month because the one I was used to sleeping next to for the 10 years we were together was no longer going to be there. I don't even think I felt like that when he used to work from 11pm to 7am, but of coarse when I was feeling alone I would just go visit him at work. The more I think about it the more I realized how hard it was for me.  Of coarse Chango had come home for a local job, but then he had to go back over the road driving again.  To my surprise I wasn't like I was back when he first left.  I think I was just scared, I didn't know what was going to happen, how I was going to live on my own, or when I would see him again.  I adjusted, got on a routine, and I started filling the bed with all the dogs.  

NOW:  Chango has been back home for about 13 days, does my bed feel empty...NO!!  At times I wish he would go sleep on the couch.  HAHAHAHA, when he is taking up half of the bed, then my dogs try to come and pile on the bed (because mama got them used to sleeping on the bed with her)  I wind up with about 1/32 piece of bed.  Yup those are the nights that I wish I had an Empty Bed again.  But either way, looking back (and I guess forward)  I am grateful that I was able to go through those early days, I'm glad I know how to cope with an Empty Bed. 

What does my name mean?

I was just sitting here, thinking to myself what does my name mean? So I decided to look it up on the internet, first I looked up my last name, then my mom's maiden name, then her grandparents surname and finally I decided to look up the meaning of my first name. Most of the websites I looked at had the same thing, male counter part Adrian, Italian origin meaning from the area of Hadria or the Adriatic Sea. Can mean dark. blah blah blah, that was not what I was looking for. So after about maybe 10 pages (seemed more like a hundred pages) I found a site called first-name-meanings. and here is what it said:

Adrianna
Who is she?

Adrianna is a woman with character! A very powerful personality, who has little reason to envy the opposite sex. Like them, she is ambitious, courageous, impatient (yup that's me)and even a little domineering. She enjoys a good fight and needs regular exercise to work off her excess energy. (That last sentance is not me at all!!!) Endowed with qualities more often employed to describe a man than a woman, (at one point my dad said I should have been born a boy, I think cause I'm not all girly girl and I love a good tee shirt and jeans look) she is forthright and doesn´t mince her words, which can be very blunt, at times. She is proud, stubborn (oh my goodness, stubborn needs a stronger word to describe my stubborness)and very loyal. She knows how to grab hold of opportunities when they appear. Tact, tolerance, passivity, gentleness and weakness are not included in her vocabulary. Nevertheless, this is to hide her emotional and quite sensitive soul, and in the face of adversity, especially during times of emotional upheaval, she is inclined to panic and become withdrawn. Although she is somewhat materialist and appreciates wealth, she is a generous spirit who is capable of sacrifice for the ones she loves ones, or indeed any good cause that happens to touch her. Parents, don´t be fooled by her tom-boy attitude, neither should you be too impressed by her apparent determination because deep down, she´s really a big softie, is more of a worrier than a warrior, and seeks security above all... However, this doesn´t change the fact that she is brimming over with energy most of the time. It´s true that she can be controlling, jealous, and possessive, but one thing is certain, she never pretends to be anybody else. Every once in a while she may display violent anger, but remember, this is simply to remind you that she exists! Equally genuine and honest as a child, she will love you intensely. Let her find her equilibrium and appease her competitive spirit by encouraging her to take part in a sport... Similarly, creative activities such as music, painting or sculpture could provide the stimulation and the thrills that she seeks...

What does she like?
A woman of great passion, Adrianna needs to find meaning in her life, and is therefore attracted to achievements that are concrete, solid and tangible. It is important for her to succeed, by herself if possible, but otherwise, her partner´s success will do, and he´d better be up to the job! Her �now you see it, now you don´t´, personality calls for escape from time to time. Her travels could just as easily take her to the other side of this world as the one in her extremely active imagination. Fascinated by all that is weird and wonderful, magical and unexplained, she may even have some talent as a medium... Her emotional life is no less divided: she knows what she wants and needs a partner who she can admire and the security of home roots, any woman that gets too close to her man would be wise to start running now! Possessive, jealous and demanding, imagine the shape of a mushroom cloud and you´ll get the general idea of what could happen, that is, unless she realizes that she might have gone too far... Far from being the model housewife, she sometimes recklessly spends large amounts of money on herself, however when it comes to others she is quite capable of tightening the purse strings...

What does she do?
Not really qualified for the role of a housewife, Adrianna could be tempted by the following career paths: business or money related occupations (banking, accounting, management...), power related occupations (military, law enforcement, sport...), travel related occupations, as well as occupations in connection with broadcasting and journalism, preferably involving contact with the public, in the social (justice) and medical fields, or an occupation that enables her to make the most of her intuitive abilities or live her "inspiration" (artistic occupations, parapsychology...)

When I read this I had to look around to see if I could find any spyware looking at me. I mean, and those of you who know me, this has me written between those lines. Not everything applied to me and my life, BUT most of it described ME!!! Now this is what I was looking for when I wonder what my name means, what are my personalities supposed to be. I think now I am going to look at my zodiac sign, Aries.....

So Tired

          Wow, I can't believe how long it has been since I have posting something on my Blog.  I don't even know where to begin to try and catch up on what is going on in my life. Let's see it is August already, the year is going by fast, maybe even a little too fast!  My last post was on July 11th, and here is is August 8th, almost a month has passed. 
          Chango was on a FEMA account, where he ran loads for fema in Oklahoma City.  It was pretty awesome because he got paid no matter if he pulled a load or not.  He had came home in June for a few days and left out and was on the account for about a month and a half.  Yup I went a month and a half without seeing my hunny bear, but finally the account was up and he was headed home.  So he finally came home 'round the 26th of July.  It was so nice to see him!! But talk about busy, we went fishing at night, target practice at the gun range and then we rested and cleaned guns on his last day home.  He has been gone for about a little over two weeks, earlier this week he was able to stop by the house for his 10 hour break.  Good thing is that he is going to be home in about a week. 
          What have I been up to?? WELL, all I can say is that I have been up to loosing sleep. LOL  I have been helping out our friend, I'll call him Flan Cupcake since I don't like to use real names, with his paper route.  His parents went on vacation so for about a week this has been my scheduled.  
                                        9:30a- go to regular job
                                        4:15p- end of work, go home, eat dinner.
                                         6p:ish-be in bed
                                         Midnight: get up, need to leave the house by midnight-thirty
                                         5:00a-6:00a-finish route, head home.
                                         6:00a-845a-get up, start schedule all over again.
So now that you look at my schedule, where does it have time to sleep.  If I add up my hours of sleep I am getting maybe about 6-8 hours of sleep.  I don't always come home from work or the route and go to sleep right away, like today.  (it's even harder when you are trying not to fall asleep at work or while driving home) You're probably wondering why I am allowing this to happen, or why I am choosing to help with the route, well it's because 1. he is a friend.  2. his parents (mamma m and daddy m) are out of town on a vacation so I am covering Flan Cupcake's route while he is covering his dad's route.  and 3.  I added up the wages from work and what I am getting paid and I am making over $200 a day for working both jobs.  It helps out in the long run, especially since I have 3 guns in lay-a-way that I am making payments on.  
I have also aquired another Bearded Dragon. Chango and I thought Drako needed a tank mate, and so I went on Craigslist and found her.  Her name is Flash (that is what they named her and I was wanting to change it to a Constellation name like Drako's name BUT Change said that since she is quick and runs around Flash fits her.  I still want to change it) She is so quick, and boy does she have an attitude on her, I was telling Chango that I have to sit there and work with her to be allowed to be held but with me working so much I don't have the time to do it.  The other day I decided to see how she would react to me putting my hand by her and what did she do, puff out her beard and opened her mouth.  I pulled my hand away, and told her okay you win this round.  But I am not going to give up on her, I am actually going to get ahold of this person who makes custom harnesses for Dragons and see about getting a leash for her so that way after I do pick her up I can put her in the harness and if she escapes my hands I won't loose her.  Plus Drako likes to go outside in the grass and I can use the lease for her also.  Eventually I will pick up another leash so I can take both of them outside at the same time. 
        Oh man, time is going by so slow when you are so sleepy!!! I better get up and move around before I fall asleep at work.

My Dad, Mom and Broken Light

A story about my Dad and Mom when they were dating.

My dad sent me a letter and what is in the picture.  The letter says:

7/4/2013

Dear Adri,

        I'm sending you this piece of plastic.  This piece of plastic came off of the tail light of my 1957 Ford, when I was visiting I got down and was against the tail end of the car talking to Rose.  The light was broken and I took outtis piece and threw i on th ground, she picked it up and said, "don't break the light."  This piece she kept it and when she was in class she would chew on it, she always carried it with her. This little piece has survived all these years.

                Take care,

                    Your DAD

                         P. Luna

When he was telling me the story before he sent it to me, he said he had fixed it to be worn on a necklace, and when he was going through her stuff after she passed he had found it again.  

Bad news for a family member

I have a cousin that is my favorite in the whole wide world; he was released from prison on parole.  For three weeks it seemed like he was doing well, at least that's what he was telling me.  He would call me every day or every other day to check in and let me know he was okay.  I had spoken to him on Thursday and told him I would talk to him on Friday. Friday came and I called him, no answer.  I thought “okay he may just be busy”.  Saturday no answer, Sunday the same, then on Monday his phone started going to voice mail. So finally today I called a parole office, they informed me that he was arrested Monday.  I don’t know why, wondering when I am going to learn what it was for.  But it hurts, and I feel like I should have done more to keep him out, but he did have it rough.  He was homeless, moneyless, family-less, and struggling.  In a way it feels like a relief because he isn’t on the streets, but at the same time I just wish he wouldn’t have gone back.  When I was told I got sad, my greatest fear came true.   I was hoping he would “tough” it out and next year when he got off of parole he would be able to come out here to Missouri with me.  In a way I feel disappointed. Disappointed in the cards he was delt, and how it put him back into prison.  Disappointed that his choices, well I haven’t really found out what the reason for going back was, put him back in there.  Disappointed, that I couldn’t help my cousin with more than just emotional support from far away.