Friday, January 13, 2012

Why do I feel this way?

At times the way I feel drives me insane! For the last 9 months I have been living alone while Chango is on the road driving. I have never liked being alone in the house and yet here I am sitting on the couch alone, well except for the dogs. I am also waiting for Chango to call, I guess the truck stop he is at is showing movies and so he is watching one or two. It drives me insane, not to be able to talk to him when I want. But I have to be more understanding; he is on the road, he needs to relax sometimes instead of being cooped up in that truck. I just can't wait till he is on a local route where he is home again. This is no life, living apart from my husband. Thats all I want is him home, by my side, making our home a home. Is that too much to ask? Am I being selfish? Why do I feel this way and not happy that he is providing for us?

Monday, January 2, 2012

Ment for eachother

I love Chango with all my heart!! I truly believe he and I were meant for each other, that we were together in the pre-mortal life, and some how we found each other in this life. You probably wonder how I can think that, and at times I wonder how I can think it also. He and I are opposites! We don't like the same type of music, our taste in movies are different, even our taste in foods are different. But even though we are different in many things, we compromise to make it work. After 10 years we have learned if we come to a middle both of us walk away happy. But we aren't always different, when we talk about our future, the type of house we want, how we want to raise our kids once we have them we tend to be on the same track. That is when we come together as one. I am so grateful to have him as a husband even though he is not perfect, but heck there was only one perfect man on this earth and he is Jesus. Heavenly Father has blessed us in our marriage and our years together and I continue to believe He will bless us in the years to come!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

First post of the new year

2012, a new year. People try to make resolution lists only to throw them out the window. I was going to try to make one, but knowing me I will not stick to it, so instead I am just going to try to change a couple o things in my life. Its not that I am making a resolution list its just things that I have wanted to start changing, one is I want to be able to clean more that what I do. Usually, since I work, my house stays messy until I have company from my church coming over or Chango is coming home for the weekend. So in return I usually wait till the last minute, or day to do a fly through the house, shove things where they can't be seen and voila my house is clean. So I want to try to clean at least one room of the house a day. My other thing, which I have been working on this year, is to read my scriptures every day. I do good for a few weeks, then go without reading. I notice when I read I feel better about life cause I have the Lord's words with me. since last night was new years and the start of a new year I was hoping the year would start off right, but instead my year started a bit crappy. For hours I couldn't get a hold of Chango and I was starting to worry bad. But finally he called, he was stuck at the shipper and his phone died. I was just grateful Heavenly Father kept him safe last night, maybe hi being stuck there instead of on the road saved his life. That is a big possibility that Heavenly Father kept him off of the road and out of harms way, maybe something could have happened if he was driving with the drunks. Either reason, I am very grateful he was kept safe and I know Heavenly Father played apart of it. After all doesn't he play a part of our lives? I think certain things happen or don't happen because of him. If we just put our trust in him he will lead us and guide us through this life and this new year. Welcome 20 12, may Heavenly Father guide me through this year and bless my family!